Sunday, December 31, 2006
Topic: 2007 is beckoning... oh yes 2007..
Song tat is keepin me sane:Dia and Ian- Yellow Butterfly
Mood: Festive??
Ok jus came back form Matin Hse.. Matin,Ali,Raymond,Yogen and me cooked up a small dinner and had pre NYE dinner together.. I cooked My Tuna Mushroom Pasta, Matin cooked up Tom Yum Soup and Ali cooked up Stirred-Fry Mushroom.. Jus had a small dinner,watch soccer and a held a movie marathon and i was the last one standing as usual..
Thank You For Smoking
Dead Or Alive (DOA)
Scoop
Those were the 3 movies watched.. It was alrite..Prefer this to a nite of clubbin anyday..
Well 2007 is comin,basically 13 hrs exactly from now.. The thing is i still have no idea how we gonna celebrate it..Probably gonna catch the firework or somethin.. hopefully i wont spend it at home..
A Recap of 2006
I wont realli do a full recap i guess cos it will take hrs n hrs of endless writin to ever finish the eventful 2006 i had.. Decisions i made which i regretted and some which i thought was right.. The new frenz I made this New Year esp the crazy girl whom i grew quite closed to.. The endless nite of partyin by tat i mean this year i party like alot and some weeks up to 4 times.. Insane is wad i describe 2006.. The dae i got so totally wasted on Raymond and Ali birthdae and jus made a fool out of myself.. Bottles after Bottles after bottles of endless drinkin..
Skool a total mess for me.. Total mess.. i jus couldnt explained in words.. Chemistry in class wasnt there.. commitment throwed out of the window jus like.. lettin down ppl in skool which i regret to this dae.. yes i lived in a world of regrets.. like i said a total mess..
Things at home, has been a rollercoaster.. Good times and bad times shall be remembered at home.. the year whereby sleep is not a word tat associated me alot.. Sleep deprived basically.. But wadeva happened at home, i still love my parents and my bro cos they will always be family..
My social life been stagnant this year which for me was a good thing wif all the stuff goin on ard.. Close frenz became closer.. but friction slowly appeared among the group.. well it was bound to happen..
Well a special mention to Ryan Star.. My Person of the Year for 2006.. He made this year jus memorable.. not tat i met him or wad which i almost came close to since he was in singapore n i couldnt score a tix to see him. But he somehow made my year wif his passionate and intense songs.. His rendition of 'Losing My Religion' is my song of the Year..
Well i guess i wont indulge any futher although the urge to is there cos once i start typin away i wont stop.. the thing is i need some sleep for the NYE celebration i guess..
Anyway to all my family,frenz and ppl who i knowinly or unknowinly do you wrong in the year, Im Sorry andlet bygones be bygones ya and have a great 2007 ahead..May yur wishes come true in the comin year..
For me,i jus hope for the better. i live for tomolo and tomolo is 2007.. hopin for a better year wif more sleep and less partyin and more soul searchin on my part and puttin a full stop to wad i want to become.. n better health n lose some weight i progress.. haha.. well like i say New Year Resolution are a bunch of B.S. !!
Bye 2006 and hello to another year of uncertainty.. its gonna be 2007 and lets be blessed wif lucky number 7 ..
oh ya.. Selamat Hari Raya Haji .. n to think i supposed to be at a mosque rite now.. well tat is another yr.. tok to ya next year Mr Blogspot!!
-Torres contemplatin death at 8:44 AM
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Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Topic: Quite a mundane Christmas..
Song tats keepin me sane:Samsons - Kenangan Yang Terindah ( Its a indonesian Song ya)
Mood:Mundane i guess
Little Miss Sunshine
Bobby
Thank You For Smoking
Babel
These are the movies i been watchin n they all are great movies with a wonderful cast!!
Esp recommend these 4.. Four of the best movies these year..
As u have guess it,spent my christmas watchin DVD than anythin else.. Didnt go out at all.. Wasnt in the spirit of it all. But its ok i guess.. Jus lazing and catchin up on dvds..
Findin more great DVDs to watch though..
Anyway Mr Blogspot Have A Merry Christmas and Happy Happy New Year..
Gonna have a review of my year 2006.. soon.. stay tuned Mr Blogspot..
-Torres contemplatin death at 4:45 AM
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Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Topic: Wet wet wet Dae..
Song keepin me sane: Deathcab for Cutie-Wad Sarah Said
Mood: Worried
Well was lookin thru my year one pics from Nafa evoked alot of memory.
The innocent yr of yr 1 and stuff.. We looked happy and carefree n seriously miss tat feelin.
I guessed we all kinda grew up n each of us kinda have problems n shit not..
Wad happen to all of us..Seriously wad happen..
I was shocked when i heard the news from one of my dear fren tat another of my dear fren wanted to commit suicide.
yes it is tat bad.. we all changed.. i couldnt believe my ears.. is tat serious..
With the shit she is goin thru who couldnt blame her..
Was worried as hell..Of all the ppl, i couldnt believe she will resort to tat..
NAFA realli did well to screw us up huh..Thanx ya..
I hope she realli pull thru this.. i realli do..
I dont want to lose a dear fren. The life and crazy one in our grp..
Well it all seems a distance past rite now,those daes..
PS.Santa i changed my mind. all i want for Christmas is to turn back time and start all over again.. i realli do..
-Torres contemplatin death at 5:42 AM
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Topic: Hello Again Mr Blogspot..
Song keepin me sane: Papa Roach - Roses on my Grave
Mood: Depressed
Ok it is official Mr Blogger, i have a problem. i have a fuckin problem... i have this bad habit where i usually dont finish what i start.. its beginnin to destroy me. yes i noe, it is of my own doin. but hell why of all habit it has to be tat.i have a problem finish books, example i usually read a book n will be so engross wif it till the last 3 chapters n my interest of it jus fly right out of the window.. n its jus a few chapters to go.. yes im a person who seriously have a short span of interest level.. i be like all interested in it n havin been wif it like 3/4 of the way..n i will throw it away one side.. same goes wif my skool.. last yr and last semester and my interest of it jus flew off.. dont get me wrong i love makin films n writin my script but tat sparks isnt there anymore.. ya i noe to weather the storm n jus finish the thing n get on wif it.. but for me tat isnt enough.. i need a sparks to reignite everythin back.. jus a small one will do.. i desperately need to find a muse asap.. i realli do.
anyway i have to have a look again wad i wanna do wif my life.. cos i dont want to be no shitty person havin shitty job all my life supportin my family if i eventually wanna have one.
i once wanna be a criminal lawyer n i mean i realli still do somewhat inside of me say so.. the thrill of u noe defendin yur guilty as hell client. oh ya screw me if im not bein moral. someone got to do the job rite. tat was way back in sec skool. then was the flirty moment of me wanna be DJ.. well didnt turn out so well. lost interest in it again like wad is new anyway. i was dabblin in doin my own tees design.. i have a few design up in my com. n tat was as far as i went.. i even thought of openin an event organizing company or those ppl who organize leaderhship camp n stuff.. cos i kinda like organizin stuff or event or outing.. but bein within my circle of frenz, organizin for tat is already like a full time affair n its kinda hard when yur frenz dont like wad u plan for tat cos then nvr interested in alot of stuff i guess.. but u gotta cater to wad they like n work ard it.. lie abit here n there n make them attend the event n after it all up to them to enjoy it or not.. ya i noe its kinda bad bein a cunning bastard n all..heck i will tell them it is for their best interest.
see Mr Blogspot n i do have these problem wif my short attention span.. n i seriously need help wif it or else i jus gonna be another asshole in this world..
In this World when dreamers sleep,
the singers weep and the writers read;
All i ever had was a piece of paper that wrote;
"In one heart lies oneself desires,
Desires to thrive and not to discern oneself wrongdoing."
Seth 03:10
-Torres contemplatin death at 2:17 AM
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Topic: Im been havin sleepless nite..
Song tat keepin me sane: 30 Seconds to Mars - From Yesterday
Mood: Downright troubled i guess
Hello blogspot im back blogging i guess after like a yr of haitus n back to blogspot.. probably there wont be anyone visitin this blog anymore since the last i updated is like 2 yrs ago?? tat long i noe..
my life so far has been topsy turvy i guess.. nothin goin my way.. everynite im thinkin abt stuff n tat let to mine insomnia.. life been shitty i guess.. problems here n there.. im gotta slowly iron everything out.. hopin for a better tomolo.. serious Mr blogspot im now the onli one tokin to u.. nobody else noe abt this.. so hope its between me n u onli..
im in the mood to write more but i will hold myself back at this veri moment n maybe save it for another dae. i will try to put myself to sleep. ok then..
Mr Blogspot do u have any Prozac or sleepin pills? Do u? pretty pls.. wif a cherry on top.
-Torres contemplatin death at 2:12 AM
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Tuesday, November 29, 2005
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-Torres contemplatin death at 2:43 AM
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Friday, September 09, 2005
Topic:On Hiatus..
Song tat keepin me Sane:Songs From Bright Eyes
Mood:Bored
Well i guessed ppl will not come here anymore.. since its been like 2 months since i updated n all.. well i was on a long hiatus.. got kinda sick of bloggin for a while there.. well here i am.. my life is kinda complicated now wif skool n my relationship n all... yes skoolwork is a bitch no doubt.. visual therapy project is like killin me n i even dreamt of it.. tat is how busy i was thinkin of skool n all.. n animation suxs big time.. not gonna tok abt it.. my hollidae is not realli a hollidae cos i still need to come to skool like evrydae..how like tat.. i miss nydc coffee,i miss coffee bean coffee,i miss holland v popiah and i miss chillin at town n jus relax ... life kinda suxs now...
have u ever felt like u want to love someone jus for the sake of it??
the sake of bein wif someone?
someone u noe u gonna break their hearts?
hearts that should nvr be broken...
im sorry..
-Torres contemplatin death at 5:37 PM
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