Monday, August 30, 2004
Topic:Wad a bad start to the week...
Song tat keepin me sane:Green Day-America Idiot!!
Mood:Fucked Up!

ok ok..plan to devote like abt 15 mins writtin this shit cos it is realli bad mondae for me..ok let me tell u wad if yur whole term work is lost juz like tat...how do u feel...u feel damn fucked up rite..yap..i freakin lost my whole term work of figure drawin in the train..ok ok..it was my forgetfulness n carelessness tat let to the thing to be gone..but y muz it happen tat way..y cant i juz forget something else..now i have to hope n pray somebody return it to me..pls somebody out there..help this poor soul who need his work cos it will cost abt 40% of my final grade!!Arghhh!!!if not i got to redo the whole thing n let me tell u this it is not easy..there are tons of work in it even my final project sketch work!!Arghhh!! i juz feel sad juz thinkin of it..damnit!! aniwae i goin to advertise somethin..

IF U SAW A BLACK A3 SIZE FOLDER WIF DRAWIN OF HUMAN BODY FIGURE IN THE TRAIN BOUND TO MARINA BAY AT ARD 1245 TO 1330.PLS PLS MSG ME OR HAND IT OVER TO THE SMRT AUTHORITIES.YUR KINDNESS WILL BE APPRECIATED..A LIFE DEPEND ON IT!!

Hope it works..i noe it wont..but it worth a freakin shot..damnit!!

Aniwae on a lighter note..i be headin down to my sec skool tomolo for teacher's dae..juz miss tat place..the daes of sec skool life was juz amazin n memories i nvr forget..hope to see some familiar teachers n frenz ard..n i might be playin in the tele- soccer match for the teachers against the student.. will see how..yeah but cant wait..n the thing is i have to rush back to skool at 130 cos i got lesson but u can back yur bottom dollar i be late or worst i might not go..lolz..will see..but i cant effort to miss visual element..i already miss one..damnit!!aniwae i off to continue to do my visual element work now...n then off to bed..till i write again..Chillz u'll..Peace out!!

PS.Green Day new album is out!! American Idiot!! Go get it in store rite now!!Green Day rock my socks!!

-Torres contemplatin death at 11:35 PM

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Sunday, August 29, 2004
Topic:Im home on a early Sundae mornin....
Song tat keepin me sane:Dj Cam Feat Anggun-Summer in Paris
Mood:Abit sober..I think...


Hey here im on a early Sundae mornin..im surprised myself...its been like ages since im at home this late cos usually i be outside like clubbin if not watchin late nite movies or juz chillin ard..haha..but im here..aniwae juz came back not long ago..came back from Cheryl bdae party at her condo..oh b4 i forget..HAPPI BIRTHDAE CHERYL!!a belated one i guess..ure 18..Hooray for tat..haha..went they quite late wif Hyqel n juz chill n had a few drinks n play some games..then audrey n hyqel kinda had to go home cos hyqel had to work n all in the mornin..so we took a cab each n went home..so here im writin..havin this pissin headache now..arghhhh..guess im off to bed now..need to sleep off this headache..signin off..chillz u'll..peace out!! n again HAPPI BIRTHDAE CHERYL!!
-Torres contemplatin death at 2:46 AM

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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Topic:What is my best sexual skill??
Song tat keepin me sane:Dinner at the money table-The Early November
Mood:So damn lazy...





Ok i not tat good in bed as so it say tat..n it seems i quite a flirt...n ppl hate me cos i kiss better than some do...well all this may be true or may not...it is up to u'll to find out...lolz..but seriously it is realli bollocks!!
-Torres contemplatin death at 10:57 PM

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Thursday, August 19, 2004
Topic:IDamn it i overslept!!
Song tat keepin me sane:The Greatest Fall-Matchbox Romance
Mood:Sleepy...

Bloody hell i actually supposed to wake like at 11 plus juz now n overslept till like 4 am..n i missed abt 60 mins of my england match n the worst part Beckham scored i missed it..England still won..hooray i guess? aniwae i damn tired la..decided to blog since i got like freakin 2 hrs to burn but comtemplatin whether to sleep or not again..havin Ceramics but i so dont want go but i miss last week one so cant afford to miss this one i guess..nvm then..yesterdae had a field trip to the Art museum lookin at chinese paintin,some sculptures n vome video..it was ok la..veri interestin stuff was seen..but after tat Amanda,Cheryl,Huda,Hyqel n me had lotsa of fun..we all were havin blast takin pics of ourselves i guess tat dae..aniwae we had lunch at KFC n we headed to Heeren for some window shoppin..plannin to shop next week aniwae..aniwae Amanda wanted to make glasses so we went this specs shop at heeren the whole bunch of us were tryin almost i think every glasses n takin pics of ourselves..the ppl werkin there were like bemused i guess..haha..it was fun..im thinkin of makin another pair of glasses..hmmmm..then we all headed ti Spinelli n chill there takin pics of ourselves..Camera Whore mode i guess for all..we like posin cute n macho n all..haha..seriously Amanda cannot act macho for nuts i guess..then we all decided to take neoprints..we all had a blast takin it..we were all like rushin to pose n all...make alot of silly faces n all..it was realli amusin n all..was tryin to scan the thing but somethin wrong wif the program so Huda so scan n give to u asap..aniwae the neoprints turn out well..our first neoprints session together ..then we all kinda went our separate ways after tat n i went to meet Izwan,Rahim n Ashraf at Far East..n i continue my search for a new bag but to no avail..we were juz walkin ard n havin some laughs n all..n kida meet up wif Ali n we all headed off home..all looked tired...i reached home dead beat..so did the neccasary stuff n decided to nap juz imean juz for a while but in the i totally overslept..bloody hell la...when i found out i overslept i quicly rush to switch on the bloody tv but luckily got see abit la..n i was supposed to do my work but now it is too late..damn it la..aniwae tat is abt all...need to figure wad to do now..chillz u'll!! peace Out!!

Ps.wad the hell was i writin in the previous entry..is tat realli me writin..??wait...it is realli me..wad the hell was i thinkin..(?_?)
-Torres contemplatin death at 5:22 AM

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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Topic:I feelin so down...
Song tat keepin me even more down n devasted:She's out of my life-Josh Groban
Mood:need i say more..damn depressed...

Ok ok it is like 3 am n im writin my blog..i muz be crazy or sufferin from insomnia..well i was doin my visual element thingy and i was lookin through my old stuff n saw this tin box which i kept everythin given or assiocated wif dee dee n me..memories started flowin back..aniwae it was from mornin i was thinkin of her as amanda n me skip lecture n she had problem n i decided accopmany since she is feelin veri down..as she was tokin abt her problem n tears from her eyes started flowin,mine started too..cos she was reminiscing the good time she had wif her boyfren n i started too..n there my tears stared flowin but i try to hold it back so tat amanda wont see..i was like so down..aniwae back to the the memory box i guess..i was like readin the past stuff written by her n stuff..n worst rite i was playin those sappy love song on my com for wadever reason i dont know..i think erasmus muz have trigger it cos he was listenin to Hard to say im sorri by AZ Yet..As i was readin my tears started flowin btw it was a letter wriiten by her i think abt 1 month after my 16 birthdae abt she openin up her feelin when she broke up wif me then..i was like cryin by then..readin it broke n shatter my heart a million n one pieces n i think it can nvr put back to one ever again..then i started to read the break up letter more of a conversation on paper which was written at Yishun BK after skool..my tears was uncontrollable..i dont y i doin this writtin this here n all knowinly noe tat she will read this but i need to let this out..i cannot bottle it up any more..it takin its toll..it may eventually cos my friendship wif her..but i have no choice i juz need to write this...becos of this i cant sleep n it is in mind constantly..the truth is i realli do miss her veri much...i keep sayin myself i need to move on n stop holdin on to my past..but i find so veri hard to do so..it is like 3 months or so since we broke up..but for some strange reason she is constantly in my mind..i noe she is happily wif her new found love..but i cant realli face it..the letter tat was written by her last time the words n emotion used,how come it juz change so soon..how can a person not feel any remorse or watsoever breakin up when u re together for 34 months...dont u feel sad or devasted to leave just like tat..im realli feel like shit right now..i cant stop my tears from flowin..n my heart truly truly hurts..i dont y i feel like this onli after so long..this is like the worst i ever felt..i think i nvr cry like this b4..this is indeed truly painful..the stuff we gone through is like so compilcated we could make a movie or write a book abt us..haiz..ppl tell me to get on wif my life how can get on wif it when my life is her..like i say b4 losin someone who is so dear to me is like losin a veri huge part of me n nvr ever gettin it back...the thing is i still love her so veri much n miss her alot..i feel so bare n naked w/o her...this path of loneliness so dark n i dont think i can ever go through it alone..i want her to be there wif me for everythin..knowin now it is impossible..Am i weak?Am i so pathetic for holdin to my past?Am i tat worthless? For me the answers are Yes..i am tat weak..i am tat pathetic..n i am tat worthless.. tat is my life so far..by sayin all this stuff now i may truly have ended a relationship which i try to build as frenz..but i cant carry on pretendin anymore..im the one hurtin..

Micheal Jackson-She's is out of my life

Ooh, she's out of my life
She's out of my life
Ooh
I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life
Ooh, she's out of my hands
She's out of my hands
To think for two years that she was here
And I took it for granted
I was so cavalier
Now the way that it stands
She's out of my hands

So I've learned that love is no possession
And I've learned that love won't wait
Now I've learned love need expression
But I've learned much too late
And she's out of my life
Out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life
Ooh, she's out of my life
-Torres contemplatin death at 3:57 AM

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Topic:A loooong weekend!! btw The Village was GREAT!!
Song tat keepin me sane:Hawthorne Heights-Niki FM
Mood:im sick!!

i have been neglectin my blog i guess..lazy to write..i goin to make this entry as short as possible cos im sick n lazy to type..

A long weekend i guess...my weekend i think is extended till wednesdae if im still sick..didnt go skool todae..was bed ridden the whole dae n readin a book abt hitchcock..so not realli a happenin dae todae..btw cheryl u still can go malaysia n draw n eat seafood when u are sick ar...haha..like real..hey but both got the same symptoms of bein sick..muz have got it from u..haha..so the weekend was not tat great i guess..but two thing stand out though 'Collataral' n 'The Village'...this two realli made my weekend worthwhile..nvm i miss the fireworks on both sundae n mondae..watchin tat two movies is more than enough..yes u can call me a movie freak cos my life kinda revolve ard movies,music n now arts...so sue me..ok ok..

Collateral:
The movie starrin Jamie Foxx n of cos the cool n suave Tom Cruise,the guy who is the epitome of coolness..f.y.i i watch every single movie he starred in..from the days of thunder to cocktail to a few good man(my fav of all his movie) to vannila sky to magnolia n of cos the controversial eye wide shut..yes im tom cruise biggest fan!!aniwae back to the movie it great from start to finish..it had this like mtv feel to it..the of cos the direction of the movie was excellent..great work by Mann the director..tom cruise playin his first out n out baddie while jamie played a timid but veri focus n driven in a way taxi driver who dream of ownin limo service co. they met in twist of fate n there the roller-coaster ride nvr end...tom cruise executed his role to perfection n so too was jamie who kinda did well as both the main character kinda have the opposite personality..the endin was awesome..u gotta watch it to believe..*standin ovation*

The Village:
Okok...for some or i guess majority of ppl who is readin n have watched the movie muz disagreed wif me when i say the movie was marvelous...Another well written n directed movie by M.Night Shyamalan movie..b4 even enterin the movie i was bombarded wif bad reviews from most if not all of whom have watched the movie..comin in expectin a Typical M.Night Shyamalan so i was expectin the unexpected..let me tell u the whole movie was like a ride in great mind..yes the twist was there..not onli one but two..but it realli got me thinkin in the whole movie n i love when i watch a movie n it gets me thinkin..another example of a movie was Identity n unbreakable..the movie tell us tat ppl are willing to do anythin juz to have a crime free live n have thier love one not die in a crime..n that love holds no boundaries n places n jealousy kills..n u can a be victim of yur own doin even if its for the good or evil..both will does wif a price..n adrian brody was excellent in the whole movie..he show us tat he can play in any roles wif a performance like tat..seriously The Village is juz incredible wouldnt flinch an eyelid if ask to watch again..cant wait for the dvd special..congrats M.Night Shyamalan for another great movie... *standin ovation*


tat was two movie reviews from me...hehe...Stepford Wives,The Terminal,Alien Vs Predator here i come...cant wait for this movie..sniwae saturdae is drawin near where we supposed to celebrate MR EISH birthdae.. a big one i guess cos he be off to be a man n prtoect singapore next wed..so promise a big k..speakin of birthdae n singapore..Happi 39th Birthdae Singapore..! a country where i can live with or without..so not feelin tat patriotic..i kinda wanna migrate to Turkey Or Carribean or better still to Italy..a country where the pace of live is slow n nvr demandin or stressful..Singapore nuthin but demandin n living here is high maintenance..it like singapore is yur second wife..or worst yur onli wife..so i guess Singapore u deserve to be 39 i guess..mid life crisis soon i guess?how i wish i got the money to go backpackin ard the world..n savour the wonders the world can offer to us..wishful thinkin i guess...haha..muz be the panadol tokin..i guess i be headin off to bed..Chillz u'll!! peace out!!
-Torres contemplatin death at 11:10 PM

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Sunday, August 01, 2004
Topic:A Dae of Spontaneity
Song tat keepin me sane:Maroon 5- She will be loved
Mood:Exhausted still!! so i kinda moody...

Well Saturdae was realli a dae of spontaneity cos imake a last minute plan to go smoke shisha wif the gang..so called them up n we met up..at first onli eish,ali n me met up first n the rest will meet us later at town..so we decided to walk ard town for a while lookin at clothes so as i can increase my already depletin wardrobe...nothin to my likin..aniwae headed off to stadium n eish saw this shoe n he decided to buy it..but they have no size..onli at centrepoint they have his size...so we heaeded there but we had our dinner first the open hawker opposite the orchard point..the food fest thingy..ate chicken rice btw ate tat twice in two daes,the we order bbq wings n satay..wanted to eat the osyter egg but the queue was way way way long..decided not to queue..damn it!!somehow regret it cos it was like the last dae..haiz..met up wif matin n izwan n they headed off to centrepoint to get eish shoe..then met wif yogen n we proceeded to go arab st for our shisha session..had great time smokin shisha..we decided to sit on the carpet outside some closed shop..it was fun..we ordered apple n watermelon mixed n one more strawberry..we basically tokin cock n singin songs..it was like karaoke session..lolz.as were singin suddenly all of us feel like goin clubbin..n well true enough we all went clubbin except for matin who had to go meet up wif his gal..there we all headed to cheeky..best of all i wasnt dress to club..i was wearin my glasses n hate to wear them to club..i was carryin my freaky bag..so i wasnt exactly dress to club..but it was spontaneous thing so be it..so we reach there abt 1 i guess.. n we dance the night away n the place was jam packed wif body..wasnt exactly an ideal place to dance since there isnt any place to dance..but had fun loads of it i guess..then headed off home..not home exactly la..went to the usual spot at 848 n sat down n chatted to yogen till abt 8..alot of stuff was tok abt between us..then headed home..my parents was already woken up so had breakfast wif them n told them where i went n all wif a pinch of salt added..lolz..then headed off to a well needed sleep n guess wad i slept till 8..woohoo..damn long man!!muz be damn tired..aniwae i hate figure drawin..have homewrk did a few n was already damn lazy to do it..haiz..havin lecture n figure drawin.. so i think i be off to bed now..chillz u'll..peace out!!

PS.A shout out to the july babies so Happi Belated Birthdae to Razi,Alvin n Fairuz!! n those who i miss their name k!! so sori!!

-Torres contemplatin death at 10:30 PM

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